January 1, 2021 - A New Start
Well, here we are. A new year, a brand new slate at least that's how I see it.
And man, I'm reflecting hard on the 2020...the year of so much damn change. Shutdowns, toilet paper became like gold, masks, masks and more masks. People showed their true colors through mandatory masks orders, locals supported local like never before and we all learned so much.
The lessons that keep showing up for me:
Patience - fuck, the hardest one for me to accept and adapt to. I've been such a controller of all the things, well all my life...born and raised perfectionist and 2020 worked HARD on breaking me of it all. As many times as I wanted to say fuck it, as I'm sure you all did...we couldn't. COVID was EVERYWHERE. Trips were cancelled, plans were changed and every single pattern and human interaction you once had...poof was instantly different. I wanted it to be over and done...I wanted to rip the mask from my face and slingshot it across the world. But alas we couldn't and still can't. I prayed hard. Harder than I have ever in my life for things to go back to "normal" when in fact they surely won't. So instead of being pissed off and one to rage against the machine. I treated everyday like it was the most important. Digging in and finding what makes me tick, what makes me happy, what makes me sad and really who I am.
God is in-control - And that's a fact Jack. As much as we think we are rolling around here in control of our lives and this world...WE ARE NOT. And if 2020 didn't wake my ass and I'm sure many of yours up to the fact that something more than us as humans is in control I don't know what will. Maybe you call it the universe, I call it my GOD. He knew 2020 would be this way, a total shit show and I truly believe we, the human race, became quite dependent on our own actions and own choices and God was like HELLLLLOOOO, I'm the great provider! Come to me and know I am your Father, your Light in the darkness, your Rock.
Hoping and praying that 2021 is a year of more clarity, love, life and cherishing the sweet little moments of joy.
Much love & gratitude,